"Depression is just anger without enthusiasm"

I have recently started some very good habits to help me get through this year:
Exercise every single day (so far, so good!)
Read at least a chapter of a book every day (not doing so well on this one, but I'm working on it)
Eating at least three meals a day (I'm doing so well on this one)

Those are my goals so far, I feel very happy about everything right now. I am very proud of myself and what I am doing. The challenge that I am taking on this year is a big one. It will take a lot of commitment, courage, and strength. I often have second thoughts about what I'm taking on, but I know it will be more than worth it in the end.

I have started reading "The Catcher in the Rye" and I would like to share one of the quotes that stood out to me the other day.


"When I leave a place I like to know I'm leaving it. If you don't, you feel even worse."


When I first read that quote it was a few days after I had left San Diego. I really felt nothing after I moved, I felt horrible. I really thought that I should feel something. I love California, I just wanted to care that I had left. Now that I'm back in California in LA, I feel sad. I am happy that I'm finally feeling something. It makes me feel a little bit more human. I will greatly miss California, but it was very good that I left. I will finally find out who I am, not who people make me become. I will be my own person, and I will be supporting myself. I am excited to see the person I grow into over this next year.

Meg

The week so far..

I have successfully moved to Casper, Wyoming and so far I'm loving it! The snow is great, and I love my roommates.

Saturday 
I woke up at 4:00am to catch a flight out of San Diego to Salt Lake City. I arrived in Casper around 12:30. It was so cold that day, but little did I know how much colder it could get here! On Saturday I got to explore the town a little, and was more than happy to find out that we have a movie theater here for $2.50!

Sunday
On Sunday, I did absolutely nothing exciting at all. I now understand how teenagers in small towns get into so much trouble. I had never been this bored in my life!

Monday
Monday was a holiday, so there wasn't much to do. Haley (roommate) and I took a nice walk downtown though (it's only 10 blocks away!). Then after we did a lot of nothing.

Tuesday
On Tuesday we visited the Boys and Girls club where Haley and I will both be working. Everyone was super nice there, and I am so so SO excited to start working! Megan arrived in Casper later that afternoon, and we are both rooming downstairs in the basement. I love it, it's the "Megan Floor".

Wednesday
Erin got here on Wednesday and she will be rooming upstairs with Haley. We signed our lease, and it felt like I was signing my life away, but oddly it felt good. Megan and I went out to Wal Mart and picked up a few sleds. The kind of sleds that are disk shaped and go super fast. We have a sledding hill near our house, so I was SO ready to go sledding! When we got to the sledding hill, there were snowboarders going down it. It's a pretty steep hill! It was rough walking up it, but it was so worth it! I had so much fun sledding, and I was so happy!


Today!
Today we are at the Library right now, and trying to get library cards. Then we are going to go apply for food stamps. I am hoping to go sledding again today. I just wish I had snow pants! Well, that's all I have to talk about right now. We are getting internet soon, and that will make it easier to post more often!

Keep in touch.
Megan

Moving Away

Yesterday was a good day. It was my last Sunday in San Diego for a while. I feel very blessed that I was able to find such a great church home for the 10 months that I have lived here. For some time I had been feeling like I didn't really meet a whole lot of people in San Diego. I felt like when I moved it wouldn't be a big deal because no one really knew me. I was wrong.
Last night I had my going away party and I realized how many people here really care about me. The party was so much fun, and I never thought I would say that about a party. Growing up I remember feeling uncomfortable even at my own birthday parties. I was never very good at interacting with a large group of people. Thanks to my Aunt and Uncle's LOVE for throwing parties, I have now learned how to "work the room". This is an accomplishment that I am very proud about.

I thought it would be good for me to share some of the many things that I have accomplished in this past year:

-learning to drive (it was a big deal for me)

-trying sushi (I didn't end up liking it, but I tried it!)

-learning to cook and bake (I can make incredible waffles) 

-being a surfer (one of the most amazing experiences ever)

-living in California (one of my goals in life, accomplished at 18)

-watching every episode ever made of The Office (best TV show ever!)

-not always asking what was in the food that was prepared for me (it's harder than it sounds)

-learning how to paint (ask to see my painted vans next time you see me)

-making new friends even if they are way older than me (example: David, Jason, Jenn, Oakley)

-learning to let go of the past (it's hard, but it can be done)

-learning what all goes into a catering business (more than you would think)

There are probably a lot more things, but I can't think of them at the moment. I am very proud of myself and all that I have accomplished this year. I think moving to California was one of the best decisions I have ever made. Now it is time for me to move on though. At 4:45am on Saturday morning I will be leaving the comforts of my home to start the next chapter of my life. I have been waiting my whole life for an opportunity like this, and I can't believe it's actually happening. I will miss the easy life I have here, but I am more than ready for a challenge.

My goal this year: staying in Wyoming the whole year.